For the past year or so I have been using Jesus Calling as the guide for my morning devotionals. You can read how I raved about it here. In short, I love the book because it is super applicable and can be molded to take as much or as little time as needed for the day. I wish that I could say that I spend at least a half an hour on my devos each morning, but the reality is that some days I just don’t have (and by that I mean I don’t make) the time. And yes, sometimes I totally skip them. Which is unfortunate, because they always turn out to be exactly what I need. Which brings me to today.
Yesterday was a stressful day. The end of the semester is nearing (I’m in grad school), which means that all of my project deadlines are getting mighty close. Those papers that I had forever to write at the beginning of the semester? Yeah, those are all due soon. As much as I tell myself that I will not be a procrastinator…somehow the days just pass by and the papers remain unwritten. Oops.
But I digress. I was feeling overwhelmed with various school projects, the fact that no one had called me back to let me know how my internship interviews had gone, the hours I was working for my other two jobs, and getting our home ready for my in-law’s upcoming visit. I also have a conference tomorrow for class, which I’ve gotten myself all worked about because it requires me to pretend to be an educated, well-versed professional, which basically means wearing grown-up clothes. Barf.
Anyway, the devo for yesterday was:
Walk peacefully with Me through this day. You are wondering how you will cope with all that is expected of you. You must traverse this day like any other: one step at a time. Instead of mentally rehearsing how you will do this or that, keep your mind on My Presence and on taking the next step. The more demanding your day, the more help you can expect from Me. This is a training opportunity, since I designed you for deep dependence on your Shepherd-King. Challenging times wake you up and amplify your awareness of needing My help.
When you don’t know what to do, wait while I open the way before you. Trust that I know what I’m doing, and be ready to follow My lead. I will give strength to you, and I will bless you with Peace.
Um, what. That was EXACTLY what I needed to hear, today and every day. The reminder to take things one at a time. The fact that we are literally made to depend on God and that it’s a GOOD thing to need Him, in good times and in bad. The truth that I HAD mentally rehearsed those phone calls over and over again, expecting the worst case scenario, when in actuality they were both full of good news that I hadn’t even fathomed. The reassurance that it’s okay to not know exactly what to do, because everything is still going to turn out just fine.
The word that really stood out to me in this devo was peace. So easily we (or at least I) can get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life, in my never-ending to do lists and jam-packed color-coordinated google calendar (okay, yes, color coding is one of my guilty pleasures). In this busyness we forget how to breathe. How to be still. How to be at peace.
What an awesome reminder this was at this exact moment in time. I don’t usually share my devos, but this one stood out to me as a great reminder with great timing. I know I’m going to have to remind myself daily (hourly) to take a deep breath and remind myself of God’s goodness and grace. He has stitched together ourselves and our lives intricately and intentionally, and even when things seem a little too much, He is there.
“The Lord gives strength to His people. He blesses them with peace.”